For those of you who think this is too private to post. STOP reading.
My good friend in Helsingborg just told me that Stephany have sent sms to him throughout this week. Even though this week has been really caotic for us. Several night; I did not know WHERE Stephany was sleeping. She decide to visit some friends in Stockholm and when I asked her where she will be sleeping. She said (That I’m to controlling asking this and she dont have to answer)
I have tried to talk to her over the phone because I’m crazy in love with her. But we always end up fighting and she stops answering the phone or texting. So several more nights went by without me knowing where she sleept and if any more people was sleeping there.
Later she told me she had been sleeping in her old apartment that a guy is renting from her ( one of her best friends ).
I called Stephany up this Friday, being REALLY sad in the phone. She answered that I should NOT disturb her and that she was to busy to talk.
I was really sad when calling.
That was to much for me: I called her up again and said it was finished. I cant have a girlfriend who dont want to share her life with me.
I wanted her to be happy when I called, I wanted to be the first she spoke to about good & bad news. I wanted to share our lives together.
Also: Not telling your partner where you are going to sleep and with who else is going to be there is disrespectful.
I always try and put myself in my partners position. If I was going to sleep over at a friends place: I would automatically tell her about it and explane the situation.
Who everybody was and so on, so she could feel safe.
BUT when I found out that she’s talking to my friends instead of calling and talking to me, that is sick!
She has been in contact with my friend Martin saying she cant get hold of me, She is the one dont answering most of my sms or calls.
In addition, I bought a gift for her:
Painter stafli and mirror, this, I asked her to pick up for 2w ago when she had a visit from a friend from Stockholm.
This was last Friday 2 weeks ago (10th of may). Steph and her girlfriend spent the night in Copenhagen and she did not tell me this until I called her at 00:30 at night and she was still there. Then she said she is staying in Copenhagen at some strangers home.
I asked her again on Sunday to please pick up the things I bought for her due to that you need to pay a penalty fee of 100kr per day if not picking them up.
Instead she leaves to Stockholm with her friend and Now she was going to sleep at different friends the next 2weeks she said.
She ended up sleeping quite a lot at her old apartment: she says.
Always when she is whit her friends she changes drastic. Then there is not so important to answer my calls or sms.
This is totally over now: I’m going to be devastated, just as I have been every night the past 2 weeks here on the other side of the world.
I want someone who is happy when I call, a person who will share their news with me first. I want to be the person that is closest to her. BUT this was not an reality.
She says all the time: She wants to live a free life.
I tried to give her everything, ALL my love and all my heart.
I have NEVER ever felt so disappointed and hurt.
Time for us to move on.
Hope you can share more of yourself to the next guy you meet.